mood : stressed, depressed, sad (?)
Listening to : Hikaku Taisho - Kakichoco
icon : rabuicons, doctorfaygo

Seriously I dunno how to keep my madness and emotion piling up thanks to another math test. I need to do good at least in one test. I got saved on the probability test because some stupid grading so everyone could pass. IDK bout this time. I'm pretty effed up after that, and I'm pretty mad myself that I could cry. Sure it's ridiculous to cry over a spilled milk, aka it's too stupid to cry over a test. But I've wanted to pass with everything I've got but I guess even that's not even enough. I could do the same number on that test last night but why not in the test itself? Am I that stupid? FOR REAL?

Throwing tantrums in my blog is the best way to recover myself and going forward, but I'm being to dependable on it. I can't keep up with this. My math is screwed up already. I got pretty lucky with Chemistry and Physics is pretty so-so coz I'm pretty sure I did OK on the remedial. Sure they have remedial, but those things are crappy, in so many crappy ways. Besides, I don't think the teacher's remedial way will help me to pass anyway, I've experienced it myself. What a stupid method of remedial.

I can't keep up with myself anymore. Being in science class sucks and that's a fact. Even if it sucks I won't transfer to social class anyway. Both still sucks. If this keeps up, I don't think I'll be able to get scholarship to other country, which I really want to. I can't master major subjects at science anymore (biology excluded), only minor subjects and that's pretty stupid to me. But I dunno what to do. Can I really keep up with getting crappy grades or just receive remedial until the rest of my high school life? Heck I don't even want to think about final exams anymore.

I have chemistry test tomorrow so I need to push my limit. I NEED TO PASS THIS TEST. With a good score if must. Having bad grades sucks, and I've been in a pretty bad mood these days. Math test just made it worse. Now, I just need to concentrate on my chemistry article so I can get good score.

Ugh how badly I want to play Vesperia and spam my PS3. Killing some monsters can kill my anger, I think == Unfortunately I can't, school is pretty shitty these days.